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My thoughts!!

A lot of these "thoughts" are from past art collages I made or taken from a 4 page document I wrote when I rambled on about the many thoughts I have about life itself. People, religion, love, how I percieve the world around me. Maybe something may resonate with you.

I personally don't believe in religion, or quite frankly anything spiritual. I personally believe there is no "greature purpose" to life, and maybe we are just here to live a life and die along with every other creature and plant. We have evolved over years and years to have such complex brains, with a side effect of the observer being able to observe itself. And with that comes questions. What is my purpose? Why do I exist? Why am I here? Surely there must be a higher reason? Consciousness gifts us with the power to question, creating theories and religions to make peace with the fact that we simply do not know. Maybe the universe always was and always will be. Maybe the answer is much simpler, or maybe we don't need to know the answer. It's like eating food that you enjoy without knowing how it's made; it's still delicious and you still taste the flavours even if you do not know how it is made. You can make up theories to cope with the unknown, but in the end you will not know on your own. The mind is so complex, we question everything but why not find beauty in the unknown? I find life so much more beautiful knowing their is no greater purpose, I can just do the things that make me happy.

The quote "fall in love with life, and love will find you" may sound like absolute bullshit but I truly don't think it is. I have noticed something myself recently, and that is every single person has an empty cup inside of them. A "depth" you could call it. Now this depth can be filled in various different ways, it can be filled with music, hobbies you enjoy, mindsets, anything that fulfills you as a person. But another can most certainly fill this cup. But what if your cup is empty and only filled up by a certain someone? What happens when they leave? Who are you truly when you are only filled up by them? I believe we all must fill our own cups with something, not let someone else take up all of the room. I found myself that my first relationship filled my entire cup and left no room for me to be... well me. When things went wrong, I felt lost, like I couldn't live without the other person. Once the relationship ended, I was confused. I didn't want another relationship or a hookup... but I craved something. Something only someone else had filled. But once I started healing, I opened up my mind, I started learning a language, listened to music I liked, wrote a novel, started planning my future travels and created the life I wanted. I fulfilled that depth myself, and then... my cup was filled by me. People should be extensions of us, not apart of us.

I used to believe in soulmates. But, now I don’t and I find more beauty in love now. That love can be fragile and easily broken if not taken care of. That two souls can love so deeply but just not work out. That we are just people experiencing life and the complexity to it that is love. Learning ourselves and experiencing others. Nothing is meant to be in this life. We are here to make it what we do. And I think the mindset of "soulmates" puts so much unecessary stress on relationships that just may not work. It is human nature to fall in love with someone we share closeness with, similar interests or chemistry with and it can feel so strong that it "has to be." Love takes over multiple parts of the brain, almost like you have rose coloured glasses on. But love is beautiful because it is fragile. Not something that "has to be."

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