I personally don't believe in religion, or quite frankly anything spiritual. I personally believe there is no "greature purpose" to life, and maybe we are just here to live a life and die along with every other creature and plant. We have evolved over years and years to have such complex brains, with a side effect of the observer being able to observe itself. And with that comes questions. What is my purpose? Why do I exist? Why am I here? Surely there must be a higher reason? Consciousness gifts us with the power to question, creating theories and religions to make peace with the fact that we simply do not know. Maybe the universe always was and always will be. Maybe the answer is much simpler, or maybe we don't need to know the answer. It's like eating food that you enjoy without knowing how it's made; it's still delicious and you still taste the flavours even if you do not know how it is made. You can make up theories to cope with the unknown, but in the end you will not know on your own. The mind is so complex, we question everything but why not find beauty in the unknown? I find life so much more beautiful knowing their is no greater purpose, I can just do the things that make me happy.

The quote "fall in love with life, and love will find you" may sound like absolute bullshit but I truly don't think it is. I have noticed something myself recently, and that is every single person has an empty cup inside of them. A "depth" you could call it. Now this depth can be filled in various different ways, it can be filled with music, hobbies you enjoy, mindsets, anything that fulfills you as a person. But another can most certainly fill this cup. But what if your cup is empty and only filled up by a certain someone? What happens when they leave? Who are you truly when you are only filled up by them? I believe we all must fill our own cups with something, not let someone else take up all of the room. I found myself that my first relationship filled my entire cup and left no room for me to be... well me. When things went wrong, I felt lost, like I couldn't live without the other person. Once the relationship ended, I was confused. I didn't want another relationship or a hookup... but I craved something. Something only someone else had filled. But once I started healing, I opened up my mind, I started learning a language, listened to music I liked, wrote a novel, started planning my future travels and created the life I wanted. I fulfilled that depth myself, and then... my cup was filled by me. People should be extensions of us, not apart of us.

I used to believe in soulmates. But, now I don’t and I find more beauty in love now. That love can be fragile and easily broken if not taken care of. That two souls can love so deeply but just not work out. That we are just people experiencing life and the complexity to it that is love. Learning ourselves and experiencing others. Nothing is meant to be in this life. We are here to make it what we do. And I think the mindset of "soulmates" puts so much unecessary stress on relationships that just may not work. It is human nature to fall in love with someone we share closeness with, similar interests or chemistry with and it can feel so strong that it "has to be." Love takes over multiple parts of the brain, almost like you have rose coloured glasses on. But love is beautiful because it is fragile. Not something that "has to be."

Everyone has a seperate version of you that they know. No one will ever truly see you for you. Think about it, only you know every single inner most thought you have, passing thoughts, judgements, every experience, every memory and literally anything because you are YOU. But no one else knows this. No one else knows every single memory you have, every experience, every passing thought, every judgement or every inner most thought you have. And no amount of explaining it to someone will make it compute to them the way you work or think. Also because language can be limiting, some feelings or passing thoughts just don't have words that can express them because we are so complex. That means your mum only knows a certain version of you, your sibling only knows a certain version of you, your partner only knows a certain version of you, quite literally everyone has their own narrative of you that they have associated with you. That's what we do as humans. That's also why when we are lied to, it cuts so deep because we naturally associate you with what we know and when that reality is shattered, we feel confused and like we misjudged heavily. That's also why you shouldn't let other people's negativity affect you because they barely know you, the way you know yourself. Let's say for example, your ex knows you as a crazy and rude person, your mum knows you as her loving but a little wild child, your sibling knows you as an absolute idiot and your partner knows you as someone desireable and sexy. There are so so many different versions of you that exist simultanously in people's minds. It may sound lonely and existential, but only you will ever truly know yourself... but with this can come beauty. Beauty in learning your mind, your thoughts and your very being without someone else's influence.

Even if I did believe in God, or was shown proof of their being God. Or him revealing himself, I would not like him nor would I worship him. He would have to give me a darn good reason, and tell me that the bibles and the books religious people preach are all false. Otherwise I would dislike him and refuse his "love." I find it strange that God depicts his love as unconditional, yet... it's conditional. How he is all knowing an all powerful, has a "plan" but somehow he allows pain and suffering, and says that if we do not believe in him we will burn for eternity even if we are good people. So... you think your mother or friend should suffer for eternity just for not agreeing with a religion, even though they are one of the kindest people you have ever met? Someone who has sacrificed things for you, or made your life easier? You support a religion that promotes that? How cruel. How cruel that innocent people will suffer for eternity, simply for not being convinced enough in a God. And that God claims to love unconditionally, yet will throw you into the pits of hell for not believing... even though he created us with free will. That sounds demonic to me. You know before you create something, what it's whole life will look like, that it won't believe in you because of upbringing or free thinking that you also created, and then you know you will make them suffer after they live... how psychotic. And killing your own "son" so people may be forgiven by you, even though you created free will... you created the world... and you can just as easily forgive without murdering your own son gruesomely, yet you decide not to. The fact that you know you could reveal yourself, help mend the wars that tear this world apart, you know what it would take so people can believe but instead you choose not to. Young children are raped brutally, children tortured, families blown up, so much suffering and this God just watches on when he is "all powerful." Has a set of rules you must follow even though the very world he created is full of suffering. Also Noah and the Ark sounds like some made up fairytale, "the whole world was horrible so he flooded it" so if he is all knowing and everything is apart of his plan... wouldn't he just not have created it in the first place?? And to say that every single individual on the planet was "bad" is so fake. Look at the world now, there is plenty of war and hate, but are you and I creating the wars? That sounds utterly psychotic to flood and drown many families when you already knew (because you're all knowing & powerful) that your creation would turn to this. It's like you wanted to see them suffer? The whole concept of "God" is just absolutely absurd to me.

Art and creativity is in everything and we cultivated this Earth to be full of it. I mean what is the world without creativity? Nothing. We turned something physical into something that holds meaning. Let me explain. The music we listen to, the music that makes us feel certain ways is art. Someone created that beat, envisioned a rhythm and others put their creative art into it to make it happen. The skyscrapers and buildings we see are art, architects used their creativity to envision something and made it come to life. The food we eat is art, someone used their creativity and experimented with different flavour profiles and ingredients to create something. The movies we watch were first imagined by someone and they used their creativity to make it happen, the actors/actresses using their creativity in putting on a new persona to convey the emotions across. Even the technology we use is an art form, the idea of creating something out of nothing and creating the feel, or the look of it. What is the world without art and creativity?

Why is everyone is such a rush? Not just on the roads, but everywhere. When going to the shops, or waiting for their coffee, or waiting for the bus, or doing just about anything! It's like we are all in a rush to go nowhere. We are all going to end up in the same place at the end of this, so why not slow down a bit and smell the roses? Life goes by so so fast, like I'm sure we've all had someone older tell us how fast time has flown by, and reminscise on their 'good old days' with us, smiling as they remember specific memories. The thing is, we don't remember the countless times we were 'in a rush' or dropped something, or forgot something. No, we rememeber the times that resonated with us most, whether happy or sad. And I think that us younger generation should really take that on board, with slowing down and not being in such a rush. Life is so unique and so rare that we got to be born, why can't we slow down and notice things? Wait a minute longer for our coffee, stand for 10 more minutes for the bus, go 5km under the limit for a bit and not be in such a rush. Where are we in a rush to? To the grave? Because as far as I'm concerned, we want to stay young, to feel alive and experience as much as we can for as long as we can. And I think that starts with noticing the small things and taking our time.

I hate feeling like I have to perform for a man to see me in any other way but sexual or 'like every other female.' I've noticed this extensively since coming out of a long term relationship that was formed through a friendship and started in high school. Now as a young adult, I notice it so much. Everyone is so lustful, so fixed on the media, propoganda and doesn't know how to commit. You've got one side that says how 'Women are dumb and are sluts/sleep around and are useless' where men don't see women as people or as smart, minded beings who can form coherent thoughts. Then you've got the 'men just want sex, men don't have empathy' etc. I am a victim of the side that men only want sex but sadly it seems that way from what I experience. Now, obviously for men they will have their own side of things. And it's so sad. I am naturally wired to think immediately every man who goes out with me just sees me as an object for sex and almost like I need to 'prove' I am smart and am not someone who just sleeps around. I HATE IT. Sadly, it seems that most men just want pussy and will do anything for it. It's so so sad and really makes me despise this generation a bit. So many porn addicts, OF watchers, sexist podcast watchers and red pill content watchers. It's like a poision that starts seeping into their minds. 'Women have it so easy, they can get any man whereas a man needs money.' WE NEED TO STOP THIS DUMB QUOTES!! Same goes for the other side 'Men have no empathy, they can't form love' etc. Because they can, I was with a man who could. I have met men who stick out from the rest. It's just sad that the majority are in that crowd that view intimacy and women that way. And I hate as a young woman, feeling like I almost have to perform or 'prove' something to any man I talk to. Also why I decided to be abstinent 8 months ago because I just hate the way men feel towards women sexually/how they view it and I hate hookup culture. I also hate that there are 'systems' that people use, like wait 3 months, if he doesn't do this he is suspicious, if he does this he's a red flag etc and I feel like I am almost playing a 'game' to see through him, his wants, his desires and if he is playing a long game. Since when did it get like this? Social media and the tech nowadays has ruined our generation and ruined forming relationships.